Day 2

Hey -- I did my 30 minutes on Day 1, but I just didn't make it back to the computer to tell you. :) It's all good. I walked for 20 minutes, did about 8 loads of laundry (and in my old farm house, that means going up and down 2 sets of steep stairs over and over) and ran errands. I'm counting all of it for that day!

For Day 2 I have walked for 30 minutes, and scrubbed out my china hutch, put in the china given to me by my friend and the milk glass from my mom. I am going to walk again tonight, after the sun goes farther west and downward, and cools us off a bit. I ate a healthier breakfast and lunch today also, and now probably won't eat as well for dinner, as we are having some fairly food picky friends of my daughters' stay the night. But last night I baked fish! Yum!

I have to remind myself that every effort is SOME effort more than nothing and that as long as I don't give up, I am moving forward. So for today, that is my goal -- to not give up! ;)

Places to breathe

I need to find a way to create a quiet space/time for myself. The last several months have taught me that private time, quiet time for me, is imperative. I internalize my stress and any outward influences that cause stress I pull in and it makes me physically ill. I have had more migraines, stress induced headaches and backaches, achey joints and have even caught myself clenching my teeth again! I have to work that stuff out in a more productive way -- I cannot let all of this build up over and over -- I lose sleep, get sick to my stomach and when I am that stressed out I have to write myself reminders over and over because it messes with my short term memory. Hate that! So, here it is -- I will exercise 30 minutes a day -- no matter what -- even if it is slow walking by myself. I cannot share my goal with the person I would most like to, as that person has a habit of using things in my life to hurt me when they are upset/angry or hurting also. I don't need more negativity at this point, after all, that is what I am trying to rid my life of! Tomorrow will be a good day for me to scrub a few things in the house (more than 30 minutes right there) and walk with my youngest kiddo. I will at least check in at the end of every week and report on that weeks' success.